iloveyou

I love you without knowing how, or when, of from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I don't know ane other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.

Chapter two

"I am constantly torn between killing myself and killing everyone around me. those seem to be the two choices. everything else is just killing time."

I want a fucking girlfriend

So fucking badly.

I want to do all the cute things couples do. I want to give her my jacket when she's shivering. I want to hold her in my arms and make her smile. I want to send her cute "good morning" texts.

I want to call her for no reason, just to see how she's doing. I want to kiss her cheek and make her blush. I want to hold her hand in public and laugh with her. I want to be the one that makes her entire day better. Not to brag or talk myself up, but I know I'd be a fucking amazing boyfriend. I'm good at making people laugh. I'm good listener. I give good hugs. I'm willing to put up with (almost) anyting.

Is it really that fucking hard to view me in that light?

I guess. I'm just forever alone.

We need to run away

"It was love at first sight, too bad you couldn't see me. Therefore, I'm in love with you, and you don't even know that I exist."

Life is the art of drawing without an eraser.

I want to live.
I want to try almost everything at least once.
I want to experience the world.
I want to know things.
I want to see things.
I want to see the good things, and I want to see the bad things.
I want to put some good in the world that wasn’t there before.
I want to be out of my comfort zone.
I don’t want to follow the rules.
I don’t want to do what’s expected of me.
I want to march to the beat of my own drum.
I don’t want my future decided for me.
I want to make my own rules.
I want to live my own life.

"Don't be afraid of death; be afraid of an unlived life. You don't have to live forever, you just have to live."

entendimiento

Nunca jamás uso la palabra renuncia. Lo que digo es: goza de la vida, del amor, de la meditación, de las bellezas del mundo, del éx­tasis de la existencia... ¡goza de todo! Transforma lo mundano en sa­grado. Transforma esta orilla en la otra orilla, transforma la tierra en el paraíso.

Y sin embargo, indirectamente, empieza a producirse una cier­ta renuncia. Pero es una cosa que ocurre, no lo haces tú. No es algo que haces, es algo que ocurre. Empiezas a renunciar a tus tonte­rías, empiezas a renunciar a la basura. Empiezas a renunciar a las relaciones insensatas. Empiezas a renunciar a trabajos que no sa­tisfacen tu ser. Empiezas a renunciar a lugares en los que no era posible el crecimiento. Pero yo a eso no lo llamo renuncia. Lo lla­mo entendimiento, conciencia.

Si llevas piedras en la mano creyendo que son diamantes, yo no te diré que renuncies a: Esas piedras. Me limitaré a decirte: «Man­tente alerta y echa otra mirada.» Si tú mismo ves que no son dia­mantes, ¿qué necesidad hay de renunciar a ellas? Caerán de tus ma­nos por sí mismas. De hecho, si quieres seguir llevándolas tendrás que hacer un gran esfuerzo, tendrás que aplicar mucha voluntad para seguir llevándolas. Pero no podrás llevarlas mucho tiempo; en cuanto hayas visto que son inútiles, que no valen nada, tendrás ga­nas de tirarlas.

Y cuando tus manos queden vacías, podrás buscar auténticos tesoros. Y los tesoros auténticos no están en el futuro. Los auténti­cos tesoros están aquí mismo, ahora.

soñar

"La subconsciente muchas veces te engaña, muchas veces te hace creer cosas que solo pueden ocurrir en un sueño sin limites."